You Can Do It!!!

While i was waiting for my car to b washed yesterday, i stumbled upon a newspaper article that that i would consider super interesting. I've read about it days before but never been able to follow up. Its about read this and it definately reminds me when i first started my diet and cardio regime. I was shocked when i heard bout his initial weight! 25o kg, but later after he went for his medical checkup revealed that his original weight was about 158kg. Ishh.. I was 143kg when i started. Its only a 15kg difference and i personaly think with all the backup from his family and uitm (wooooo imagine being helped by 8 sports and science lecturers??? heaven siottt hehehe) he wil eventualy reach his dream ( i dunno his target laa) weight. And all the fuss started when he is denied entry to the LPKN course. One of the use of LPKN courses heheh, to attract attention heheh.

He will be going through 6 months of rigourous diet and exercise regime set up by these uitm lecturers and i remembered reading that he will continue to be aN exercise trainer after he reaches his target. I think the's 6 month program will be carefully monitored and documented as a guide on how to lose weight for ppl who are having the same problem, Morbid Obesity. The term i found out through Discovery Channel heheh. It relates t0 a group of ppl who are not lised in the bmi (body mass index). Anyways, program or no program, it usually takes will power to get one through. As for me, i realized it in a pain way.... one morning (the day b4 i had kambing masak lemak hohoh)i had gout (sakit wei!!!) n i can't even walk to the toilet!! i had to crawl!! that was the MOMENT. The MOMENT i realized that i dont want to live like this for the rest of my life!!! Being inmobile in a very young age is a demn scary thought!!! So from that day on, i promised myself to change and i did. My goal was further strengthen when one of my close chinese friend suffered a heart attack and died. He was overweight, smoked and drank alcohol. A lethal combination i might say. He was just 24! After that, there was no turning back! During the whole duration since September to now was a complete and new experience hehe.. Luckily i wrote all in this blog so that i could refer or just bace saje2 hehe. Puas hati dooo!! So as for now, time is the only thing i and Mohd. Said Ibrahim need. Insyaallah, ill reach 80kg early August and finaly my dream weight 70kg at the end of this year........

Anyhow, i wanna wish Mohd. Said Ibrahim goodluck and pray to god that he will reach his weight target and his goal to enroll onto the lpkn course will turn into reality. Amin.

Latest Weight Count

Finaly after 2 weeks of hardwork, here's the result....

Tak sabar nak jejak 80kg...

TGIF!!!

My first day of work. Boring as i expected. Nothing changed. Its the regular works. Arrived at office, waited for my friends, head out to our fav mamak restaurant (al-azwath) and had bfast. Bfast i've been longing for 3 straight weeks. Capati besar. Emmm sedap wei. Then shortly after entering my messy work cubicle, i got summon to my gm office.

"Ish apehal laa mr.tan panggil pagi2 nih, hehehe"

All sorts of scenario was playing in this thick skull of mine. Am I getting fired? (Heheeh this one tak logic but it really did pass through my mind) A new task? What?

As i prepare for the worst, suddenly i felt a pat on my back. It was one of our company project managers. He was baffled on why i didnt came to the office for quite some time. Aik?? Didnt our company clerk noticed everyone?? Damn, shit. No wonder all my the messy files and memos left scattered around my desk. They dunt know. It took awhile to explain and he was so amazed on the fact that i broke my arm playing tennis!! Hehehe... tennis bahaye jugak wei. On the way to my gm office, i pass all my mc forms and sign some admin related stuff.

Finaly met mr. tan and the first think he did was commenting on my new appearance!! Hahahaha, never thought after a year plus he noticed my changes!!. Demn, i was somehow happy and terkejut laa hehehe. He even asked how i manage to do it. The first 20 minutes i spent telling him my so called secret hahahah. He was carefully listening that i can tell you. Sesh, then after that we came to more important matter. Mmg pandai laa my admin department. Serious shit pandai. There are ppl that dunt know about my absent!! My supervisor plak konon2 bz hehehe. So its like a chain reaction event. My work didnt get passed to anyone, demn plenty memos on my desk and suddenly got more work this morning! Memang mati laaa.. i acted like i was serious hearing every detail my gm had to tell although my mind was far off wondering....

i bought the star and started to browse their classified section. I even logged on to jobstreet.com and checked my impending interview calls with no luck. Man, i got to get out of this shit hole laaa.. demn fast!!

SALE??

Ish, its that time again. I hit a bump laaa.. waaa, though its alredy 1 week+, theres no sign of decreasing of weight heheh. I've stepped up my regime doing 2hrs of cardio every day still no changes. Sesh, somehow i kinda feel frustrated. Based on my pass experience, these bump actually will take like 2 or 3 weeks and i really dunt know why. I think its somehow our body ways to familiarize with sudden changes. Anyways, i'll continue my program till the end no question bout it. Emm wei, any1 outhere wanna go running with me aaa? Pullah? Anyone? hehehhe. Kinda bored running alone. I might find meself a mp3 player laa.. What's it feel like running with music?? Mayb i'll get an Mac shuffle. Or mayb a sony latest mp3 players.. cute giler!! hehehe.. suggestions are welcome wei.

Finaly all good things must come to an end heheh. My long 3 weeks holiday is alredy over. I'll resume my work this Friday and the first thing i noticed is that next Monday is a holiday!!!! Talk bout timming eheheheh. Demn, a day off on a Monday? heheheh heaven wei. Hope we all will do sumething worth wild that Monday. I'm currently getting ready to hit KL this morning. The first stop i'll make is ISETAN, KLCC heheh. I heard theres some mega sale going down there. Might as well use my last 2 days wisely dunt u think? heheh. Gonna shop for some clothes, pants and mayb go lunching with my dear friend Stone. Best wei, finaly im cured 100% internaly and externaly. Its like been given the chance to restart ur life and do it all over. After completing my weight target, i'll focus on my career. Ive been wanting to change jobs for a long time now. 2 - 3 interview i went wIth no luck. Shit. Susah cari keje nih wei hehehe. That's life. Mayb living with no important commitment is the culprit. Yealaaa, i'm definately in my comfort zone right now. Ish.. Okler. first thing first. KL, here i come.....tennis too heheheh

My Superwoman hehehe

Last night was kinda emotional. I can see tears in their faces. My mum stood strong and delivered her final speech. Finaly after 29 years serving the teaching service, my mum was celebrated in a grand farewell majlis held by her school (Sek. Men. Labu) in Alson Klana, Nilai. I felt demn proud and at the same time i was feeling kinda sad knowing that my mum's gonna retire. It felt weird wei. The thought of her not working anymore feels kinda strange. No more hustle bustle or the mayhem of my mom preparing to work, no more feeling worried whether she arrive or not at her school, nadaa. All my life, up till now i kinda enjoyed to see my mum working. Her dedication and working ethcis simply amazes me. She really loves teaching. Not that she teaches back then (this past 10 years laa), she was a HM but the management skills involved in her work, meeting ppl organizing events, she enjoyed all of that.

My mum....demn proud of her

A lil fact that i know bout my mums career. She hip - hopped 16 schools b4 ending her career in SMKLabu. Teaches BI, BM, Pengajian AM, Sejarah, n stopped when she got promoted to HM in 1995. Wrote STPM papers and had been with the Examination Board since 2000. The farthest and deadly school she attended was in Serting Hilir Complex, when we were in Bahau, ns. The road to that school was like 70km in the middle of nowhere, demn treacherous n super duper dangerous. (imagine being stopped by a tiger in the middle of nowhere??) heheh. So what i can conclude from her 29 years of teaching experience is... u got to have the demn dedication n strong will power to dwell in this profession.

Now she's retired. Huh, i hope i have 3/4 of her will power and dedication when it comes to work. I'm demn proud of her. Nuff said. Today is the first day of her retirement. She'd alredy organized the kitchen. Tuh baru satu hari! Imagine whatelse she can do with the time she has. hehehe. She is really my superwoman hehehe.

Its close to 7 am and i still can't sleep. Sesh.. I just can't. Demn. Dun't know why. Still thinking bout a cruel joke my friend told me last night. Shit, I think i have a serious problem laaa. It seems that i just cant let go or forget any thing that effect my life directly.Arghh, . Pening. Takmo tulis lagi, i think i'll have a run laa pagi nih.

Full Steam Ahead

Well, its look like my hand is like 80% functional and healed huhu. Now i can type with both hands thus doubling the speed of my typing capability n shortening the time taken to finish this entry heheh. I just can imagine my doc face if he knew what i've been doing this past 2 - 3 days heheh. On this magnificent evening, i succesfully ran 5km without wearing my handband. I ran 40 minutes straight!! its a demn good achievement i would say. B4 this, it was on an increment like 5, 10, 15, 20,... all through 40 minutes. These 2 weeks rest totaly healed my body in and out. Heheh, patah tangan nih ader hikmah dier i tell u. And these are one of many visible hikmah i choose to aknowledge heheh.

I'll be posting my weight count soon and i'll be focusing to tackle 80kg within the next 3 weeks ahead. And tomorrow i'll be visiting um and mayb i say mayb gonna have a run through heheh. Demn, i'll mayb gonna swing some tennis ball also. This time i swear im gonna b much more carefull. So thats all ive planned for tommorow. Chiow n see yer all in um.

Heheheh reached the 80 ish kg marker heheheheheeheh......

Sunday Morning

Ok, I finaly got some weird urge to write on this wonderful Sunday morning. I'm gonna write about my typical Sunday morning heheh. Although we have our own room kan, still we manage to sleep infront of the tv like everyday... heheh, best wei, the wooden carpet my mom bought from Sarawak somehow feels very cool heheh, with some layers of comforters, pop in a dvd then walllaaa out to slumber land heeheh....

waaaa what a mess...

n sleeping at the hall comes with it own pro's n cons heheh. Subuh awal giler. My dad would wake us up like in 5.30 am. (week days laa kan...) Ngantuk giler but its worth it, i sumehow like it laaa. Then comes my mum plak (anyways.. happy mothers day to all mothers out there..... ).

" Dah kemas - kemas, lipat balik comforter tuh", "Kemas balik cd cd tuh menyemak jer" (for the sake of this entry, all the cleaning process would start after 10am heheheh)

my fav stationary bic heheheh

Heheheh, awal2 subuh kene dah hohoho. suke2. After subuh i would hit on my stationary bike n do like 1 hr on it. I usually ride it like for 30km heheheh. In the mean time, my mum would prepare our breakfast and my dad would read the papers. And after my cardio, i'll go to my fav spot on earth, , my desktop, check all my dl's, emails n etc. kekadang layan short movies ker things like that, read blogs, write blogs, edit comments etc hehheeh.

My fav place on earth hohoho.....

Then b4 our breakfast, we all took turn to weight ourself n boast or blagak to each other heheheh. Everyone of us. Excluding my mum laaa.. hehehe Bapak aku seres kerek. 90kg, takyah maintain mkn pun cantuh jer weight dier.... tension plak hohoho. My bro weights 82kg n i sumehow can imagine when i reach the 80kg mark... okler tuh. n during our breakfast, my mum would initiate sume hard-to-imagine topics like todays lhdn-the workings, why the deb (dasar ekonomi baru) was a total disaster n my dad being defensive n full of idea would give his opinion. Aku ngan adik2 aku just like emmm "Whatever,..... asalkan depa bahagia hehehe". I can't imagine when our parents retire nanti hohohoh sure kecoh satu umah.

Bfast... lempeng, sambal ikan bilis and nasi goreng.... pergh complete meal for the day.

And during bfast, my dad would lay out the plan for the entire day. Today its look like were gonna visit my bro at mrsm kkb n my grandma in rawang. Sesh, jauh laaa penat giler, dahler tgn patah hohhohhoho-- any of that reason would not work on my dad. Its kinda scary to like second guess or object my dads word laa.. a lil secret, i broke my hand after my dad called n requested me to send him to klia the next morning... I simply said i can't. Wallaaa... feel the wrath of my dads heheheh... bahaye siut. heheheh. But i think its just me laa... i just can't simply say no to my mum n dad.. the guilt feeling tuh susah nak hilang... Now tgh prepare nak go to kkb.. till the next Sunday, bye dudes....

Statement num 8

Just to verify statement num 8 by nik hehehe..., anyways im gonna hit kl today n i hope u guys got sumething planned laaa....

Its 92kg now ... hehheh

70 kg

I will prevail. I'm gonna reach my target. Next week im gonna start my cardio n diet exercise till i reach my final goal 70kg. For the time being im gonna njoy every moment i have. Borneo, here i come.

p/s: thanks again for all the wishes k. Rindu sial um n kl n everibodi...

OKU

My first ever sport related injury hohoho. Thats what my friends calls it... sport related injury heeehehe. Never thought that it would be this serious. Till now im kinda wondering how it happened. Shit, how can i break my left hand when im using my right hand laaa? Puas pikir .. sakit wei!!! Serious. I was trying to hit the tennis ball as hard as i can when i took the wrong step n seconds after that i felt incredible pain on my left hand. I would like to thank u guys outhere for helping me (Mandorm, popo, shapeng... thanks). Rushed to UH n the pain slowly subsized. Atfirst i thought it was like something minor cam sala urat ker some bone dislocated ker.. but after taking my xray, the doc said i suffered broken bone. wuhuuu... my first time ever wei hahaha..

thumbs up

My doc gave me 3 week mc n i was plastered heheh... a first too. Suddenly i realized that im gonna have to leave my typical live for 3 weeks! This sad n down feeling suddenly came n i was like demn depressed n terribly sad that im gonna miss the karaoke session this friday that the gasingers had planned earlier.. waaaa sedih sial. it was supposed to cure my latelty sad n depressed kinda state. thinking bout it makes me more loomy laa waaa. not only that, im gonna leave my life in kl for 3 weeks! all the future movies, the night spots, midvalley, etc all for 3 demn weeks. shit.. im gonna die of boredom.

not only that wei, i'm gonna have to stop my exercise program for awhile. huuhu, no running, gym n tennis for 3 weeks?? naahh, i'll definitely find a way to compensate on that. mayb ill start dieting kot. dunt want all ive done up till this point go to waste.. sedih lagi huhuhu, ntah laa.. everything happens for a reason n i honestly believe that there is some hikmah brhind every kejadian. its just time will tell. so im just waiting n hopping for the best.

anyways, i would like to thank for all who have sms n called wished for my speedy recovery, thanks a lot !!! i really appreciated it. Anyways i know my HR Dept will definitely love me more after this incident heheheheh.

p/s: aku kagum siut with my one hand typing ability!!! u should try it hehehe.

My weight count

Ok, done with my ptd. Did all the best i can n now i can only hope and pray. Here's what 3 days of activities did to my overall weight.

ROADTRIP

Gonna be disconnected from the world this 2 or 3 days. Just wanna wish goodluck to all my friends who r going to their ptd assestment course this weekend. Goodluck ya'all!!! Anyways, suke sial the thought of having a road trip...emm yeeeehaa!!! Bye dude n dudes (ader??).

p/s: dunno if my eyes r playing tricks on me... 94.3kg now....gonna post the pic after my assestment course!!!

Running is my way of life heheheh

Yep.. its official laa.. jogging (oopss running.. heheh) is the best weight reduction method ever!!! waaaa.. i was like ??? huhuh demn.. 2kg a week?? yuhuuu somebody gonna loose bad wei hahahahaha..... anyways, just got back from Mlaka, had a wonderful outing to Mahkota Parade with all my bro's gf's and their family.. demn, our family confirm gonna get demn big demn soon hahahah ..i personaly had a wonderful time. Its sure nice got to know all ur future relative ahead of time. Seriously, if i have the same oppurtinity in the future, i'll do the same...

p/s: this week weight count pic ader kaki aku skit heheh.. Comel tak?? huhuhu

Yey.. 6.2 kg to go!!!

Weh Sedap Sial!! hahaha

Just happen to found these mouth watering alluring pics on my comp while i was bored to death heheeh.. decided to share with u all hohoh. Anyways, these pics were taken in Pizza Uno, near OU there..(Affy, Shapeng and Shidee's Birthday Party) aku pun tak ingat and they have this cream cheese with straberry toppings that is simply out of this world huhuhu.... feast ur eyes wei .. hehehe

Carbonara (Dunno thir real name.. huhu but SEDAP GILER..)

Seafood Marinara .. SIMPLY OUT OF THIS WORLD WEI hahaha .. I did get the big ass shrimp hahahaha

One of the pizzas featured that night… emm yummy

Birthday Cake hehehe.. sedap laa jugak, full of fats and sugar!!! heheh yummmmmieyyyy

P/s : So any1 outhere nak try anything rare or weird food just leave me a msg hehehe...and thanks to Shappeng for these amazing pics huhuh...

Presentation beb...

Yuhuu!! Already passed my final presentation for my company naik pangkat course hohoo!! Best wei, the mixed feeling I had to endure waiting patiently b4 finally its our turn to present our 1 month project. It was exhausting...My final thesis presentation pun tak camnih wei.. Anyhow, we did present with flying colors n one of our management said “Your team’s presentation was one of the best and the most interactive among these groups” yuhuuu!! I leapt in enjoyment hahahaah. Now we all got to seat the final test this 29^th April and kalu takder aral melintang, we all gonna passed with flying colors plak hehehe. Perghh syukur dah abis hehe…Anyhow, just wanna wish u all a very happy weekend... Will update my weight count when i arrive in Sremban k.. huhu...

Lajunyer mase berlalu.......

Dang, dunno whats up with the net connection these few days... Wrote 2 lengthy entry just to be denied (the net say the page contains no data??? whatev!!!).. shit laa blogspot.. penat wei. To come up with words of wisdom heheh isnt easy k? Hehheh anyhow, learned from my mistakes and went back to my old style of blog entry heheh txt file. Takyah takut terdelete ker aper ker tak? huhuh...

And Still listening to Boyz2men songs.. Never get bored of them.. mymymy, im seriously have somekind of problem. Problem me myself cant pin point laaa.. Is just these couple of weeks i get terribly blurred and completely lost.. Shit is this some kind of life shift? some part of life where everyone must go through? Whatever it is, its like intefering with mylife in certain ways. Cant think properly, buat keje pun nak tak nak jer n im like go with the flow jer. I read keng's latest entry n he says something of me being in love? Ye ker? Tak kot.. ish dunno laaa, still I love this uncertain n unstable feeling... beats watching sepet dozens of time ooo heheheh....

And what going on with the time laa? it feels like time flew by cepat giler wei. Sedar2 dah Jummat dah, Sabtu and damn Monday again.. huhuhuhu. Seriously, yesterday i tried hard thinking what ive done this past 4 lousy days. Remembered my meeting on monday, started coughing and developed chest pain on tuesday and mc for wednesday and thursday. Hohoho Best giler ok hahaha. Anyways kan yesterday ive taken an xray n phew.. according to the doc, i was a ok just minor bronchitis and no life threatening disease ive feared the day b4..huh what a fast week. Hope i'll do something useful n worthwhile next week..

p/s: took my weight count n managed 98kg huhuh, will post my lovely weight counter when i got the time heeheheeheh...c c.. i really got the time laa hehehe

berjaya to 98kg!!! hhuhuhuhu cant wait to hit 90kg ahahahahah

What a enjoyable family outing huuhu.. went shopping and guess what i bought?? hehehh... Finaly after 23 + years of waiting i bought my first Levi's jeans hahaah.. yuhuuu.Size 38!! Mayb to some ppl its like hak eleh beli jeans jer kecoh, but not to me.. its realy a historic day for me.. all my penat lelah and struggle ive been through like paid off a lil bit today, a LEVI’S beb hahahahaah tak sangke dude.huhuhu, maleh nak ceriter pepanjang.. let the pic laa story for themselves heheheh... anyways, the to-do-list (for my diet program..) is getting shorter n shorter by the months hehehe...

Buying process…. Hehehe

My first Levi’s jeans hahahahahahah… cam budak2 duh hehehehe

Emm bestnyer......

Dang, dunno why but listening this song on a brezzey (btulka? heheh), cool and wet sremban afternoon is really demn soothing (hard to explain in words ..) ..... shit, mayb after watching boyz2men live (at the forces of nature concert) n glued to their cd 24/7 also mayb have a demn weird effect to me. Its demn hard to describe, its like watching sepet + ada apa dengan cinta = this song kinda feeling. Huhuhuh, Anyways, here's my current song (Click Here huuhu) for the month hehehe...


I'll Make Love To You

Close your eyes, make a wish
And blow out the candlelight
For tonight is just your night
We're gonna celebrate, all thru the night
Pour the wine, light the fire
Girl your wish is my command
I submit to your demands
I'll do anything, girl you need only ask

Chorus:
I'll make love to you
Like you want me to
And I'll hold you tight
Baby all through the night
I'll make love to you
When you want me to
And I will not let go
Till you tell me to

Girl relax, let's go slow
I ain't got nowhere to go
I'm just gonna concentrate on you
Girl are you ready, it's gonna be a long night
Throw your clothes on the floor
I'm gonna take my clothes off too
I made plans to be with you
Girl whatever you ask me you know I'll do

Chorus

Baby tonight is your night
And I will do you right
Just make a wish on your night
Anything that you ask
I will give you the love of your life

Chorus

Wohooo... refreshing siut, wished everday that i'll have this feeling huhuh demn worth living heheehehhe ...... =)

Goodluck yer all....

Just wanna wish all my friends who r going to the PTD assestment trial this 22 April 2005 a very goodluck and may we all succed in overtaking the goverment in the near future!!!.. btw me n stone will go to Intan Kluang for our assestment. So dudes n dudies hehehe... goodluck yer all!!!!!!

MALAYSIA BOLEH HHEHEHEEH

Double Trouble huhuhu

Had an interesting conversation with my parents last night. .We talked mainly on my current diet program and generaly my life.For the life part, biaselaa, biler nak beli rumah, biler nak kawin and q like that laa kan..As for my diet program, i've told them thatI've finaly hit the double digit weight mark!! huhuh. Took my weight count yesterday n it was 99.6kg!!.They were kinda speechless at first hahahahah. I've remembered the first day i told my parents that im gonna change my life style n seriously reduce my weight. At first, they were sceptical (yealaa u too if u know how many times i've tried n failed miserably).

They were sceptical but still they gave me hope and morale support (and also financial support = buying the bicycle machine is not that cheap oooo). My mum would prepare fat free dishes for me for the first 2 - 3 month of my diet program. That really helped. I've reduce my rice intake (at first it was hell) but after the 3rd month my body lost the urge to eat rice laa.. now i eat rice on kendurikawin or any special occasions. I've stopped drinking soda's and all canned drinks and stick to my all time fav drink = air suam.Hohoh, it did wonders man.

Seriously dude, without my parents, i dunt think i would make up to this point. They believed in me when all hope seems to fade away,like when i've stuck at 117kg for a looong time n still my dad keeps on encouraging me and slamberjer made a bet with me, a bet that i won last night! What i remembered laa kan what my dad said to me:


Dad: "Kalau **** dapat sampai 100kg, ayah bg rm**** utk tukar semuer baju2 lame ****"


Yehaaa! Atlast, finaly huhuhu. I wont have any problem changing all my wordrobe heheh. Gonna hold on till ive reach 80 or maybe 75kg n im gonna have the biggest shopping spree of my entire life heheheh. Im also thinking of inviting my close friend for some makan2 to celebrate my double digit weight laa... what do u think eh? ehehe.. Logik tak? or celebrate when ive reach my ultimate goal? = 70kg? Tak kesah laaa.. eitherway im still gonna have the makan2 just the time jer tak confirm. And last night was also funny. My mum took out some of my dad's current long sleeve shirts and blazers for me to try it on. And they all fit flawlessly heheeh. Demn man. i just realized that i wont have to buy any working attire for atleast the next 10 or 20 years heheh. My dad's being gov officer with a huge collection of tie's, blazers and long sleeve shirts contributed to my later conclusion huhuhu.Walaaawei, my options are endless.

So now, what is left for me to do is to refresh and set a new target that is 90kg and strive for
it. hehehe.Thinking back of all the hardship and trouble ive force myself to endure all the past 6month makes me smile hehehe. You seriously wont know your limit till u force it on urself. Im just glad that all my hardwork is not wasted and shown its benefits. Oklaaa, its raining here sremban n im kinda sleepy n tired hehehe. Ill try updating soon. Have a wonderful Sunday n chiow!!

p/s: A very happy birthday to Affy, sorry laa, cant celebrate it with u laaa, family matters k. (btw Ade celebration ker ?? hehehe)